Friday, January 25, 2008

The meaning of life?

For those of you who know me and have not heard already I am sorry for letting you find out like this.I AM GOING TO BE A DADDY.Sometime round about Sep to be exact.Would like to request duas/prayers that black dot(see picture) becomes a healthy beautiful girl that is the coolness of her parents eyes.

Am filled with a great deal of joy over this child to be but at the same time cant help but be afraid.Will I relive the shortcomings of my father towards me with my child?Will I in an effort to make right on the things I felt wrong growing up make a total hash of it.Doubt and fear have a frustrating habit of being able to build themselves up into a real mountian all on their own.

At the moment leaning towards handling it the same way I have pretty much everything my whole life.Give it my all and hope everything falls into the right place.Or maybe I should adopt my other modus of overthinking it all and missing the best bits................................